Wednesday, August 27, 2014
Wednesday, August 20, 2014
While I was in Utah this summer, I visited our church history museum to check out one of the latest art exhibits. It is called "Practicing Charity: Everyday daughters of God", and is filled with inspiring paintings by many talented artists. A couple of my favorites were "climbing mother" and "Halo Repair" by Brian Kershisnik.
"Climbing mother" reminds me of my younger sisters and friends who have little ones. Little ones that are dependent on their mom for their needs. It reminds me of those days when my babies were little, and there just didn't seem to be enough of me to go around. A mom practices charity as she lovingly cares for her little ones, even when it is physically exhausting!
And, I love "Halo Repair". It reminds me that we are imperfect children of God, needing constant adjustments to our halos. The commentary next to the painting read...
"Angels descend from heaven to comfort this woman and to repair her halo. This whimsically serious painting reminds us that we are not perfected yet and that our halos are in constant need of repair and adjustment. To be human is to have the faith to remember our immeasurable individual worth and then labor each day to repent, to change, and to trust that we do not labor alone.
Saturday, August 16, 2014
Thursday, August 7, 2014
While I was in Utah this summer, I visited one of my favorite shops...Dear Lizzie. It is filled with all kinds of goodies, and so inspiring. I picked up a couple of gift tags that seemed to touch my soul. One was this quote from The Velveteen Rabbit.
I mentioned in my last post that I have been struggling again with depression. I'm going to open up here a little bit more. After that post, I talked to several women who were struggling, just like me. Amazing women. Women who are extremely talented. Women who can do so many things, but find themselves stuck. Stuck under a mountain of "To Do's" and struggling with their self worth because they are there and hardly able to function.
That is where I was, and where I often tend to go. Whatever the reason we find ourselves in this overwhelming place, I know we can find peace that God knows that we are there, and that He loves us and understands. And that in His time, if we are willing, he can direct us to healing.
For my physical symptoms, I have found relief with SAM-e (an over the counter supplement that I bought at Sam's Club). Emotionally, He teaches me how to have healthy boundaries for myself as he puts people and books in my path to teach me how to begin to balance life, and better understand me.
The Gifts of Imperfection and other wonderful books by researcher Brene Brown
Boundaries by Cloud and Townsend
Hinds feet on high places by Hannah Hurnard
A Return to Love by Marianne Williamson
This video/talk by a modern day apostle of the Lord Jesus Christ...
Like a Broken Vessel
I don't want to overwhelm you with resources, and I know I am not an expert. But, I can testify that He heals me. Over and over again. He knows how to bring me to happiness, and when I let go of trying to control the steering, He shows me how to get there. I have witnessed Jesus Christ working in the lives of many friends, and leading them to other healing resources as well. He will do the same for you! He loves you individually, and knows how to reach YOU! Divinely inspired truth...may come from different places, but it all comes from the same SOURCE.
Gradually, I better understand myself as I turn to God, and I become more free from those things that are holding me down. Each time I find myself stuck under a cloud, I am led to learn something new, and I seem to be able to handle my depression better than before. Even though it is hard...Really hard...I recognize it as a gift of learning. With my most recent episode, He was letting me know, that it is ok that I can't "do it all" Despite what the world says... I'm not supposed to. He turns me away from the world and towards Him so I can let things go and have peace again. I begin to see His hand in the details of my life, and feel gratitude...which helps me tremendously. He wants me to give quality time for myself, instead of just for others. Sometimes, when I get really agitated, it is because I am not caring for me.
He led me to this video, and has inspired me to dig deep within myself to create what I want, and not what I think I need to create. He helped me dig up my buried desire to learn to paint portraits...just because and for the joy of it. And He gave me the courage to let go of everything that was keeping me from taking a class and learning.
I know each of us is unique, but we have a lot more in common than we sometimes realize. And, we all need our Savior to show us the way. We need to strengthen and encourage one another.
I am trying to learn to love myself in healthy ways. To slow down, and let things be. To let things be undone, and to trust God to make up the difference. To step around the wall of perfection that blocks me from living. To find beauty in the messes, and inspiration from life. Learning to be real, and to really live.
Wednesday, July 30, 2014
Maybe if I write this down, I will remember it....always. Because I need to.
This morning I went running. Well, half running, half walking, because I just haven't been able to get my body moving like it was before vacation. And, depression has been rearing its ugly head again. I know there must be good reason. I have a swirl of solutions spiraling around in my head, but the one I am trying to grab hold of is the one Jesus told me as I was walking today...
"Do the best you can, and I will make up the rest." It's quite amazing that I heard His voice at all, because of all the "To Do's", fears and worries that were crowding my brain. Even when I sincerely prayed for help and started telling Him my list of good things that I feel I must do, I didn't have immediate faith that He was listening... and answering. Fortunately, I recognized His voice, because it brought me some much needed relief.
I love this painting of Him. It is "Prince of Peace" by Liz Lemmon Swindle. I keep it on my mantle. Right now, you can get a free 8" x 10" print for your home, as well as for a few friends or neighbors. I just ordered some as I have many friends battling cancer. I hope this painting will give them peace and strength, and that as they draw closer to Jesus Christ in faithful prayer, He will succor them, as I know He longs to do.
If you would like a free print...visit http://www.pictureofchrist.com/freeprint/
Monday, July 21, 2014
I gave my turntable a face lift. Years ago, a dear, sweet lady gave me this reproduction of an old radio when she moved. You have probably seen similar ones in retail stores. It gets radio signal and houses a cd player and a turntable. I was thrilled because I have a lot of old records. I never really liked the wood finish though (too reddish for my liking), but I wasn't sure I wanted to tackle painting it.
Then, when I re decorated my sun room, I decided I wanted to put it on my antique buffet table. The wood finishes clashed, so I knew it was time to take the plunge. It took a bit of work, but I taped off all the dials and speakers with masking tape. Then I hauled it out to the garage and gave it two light coats of inexpensive flat black paint.
And I lOVE it! It is so much more my style.
It reminds me to never underestimate what a little can of black spray paint can do!